Mite, ikuzo! chap. 15

I didn’t know for how many hour I’ve been kneeling there but my knee felt really numb! I thought to myself that I better go back to the hospital or else I’ll make every one’s worried! I walked down the stairs. I don’t feel like running because my legs can’t take it. I’ll just end up tripping down. As I walk down the stairs, passing by the houses, shops, I thought to myself, hoping that Kami-sama could hear my pray. How I really want kami-sama to hear my one and only dearest pray to my one and only dearest chikage-san.

When I was just entering the entrance to the hospital, one of my father secretary ran towards me, calling me that everyone was worried. So, he pulled me and we went to the lift. He asked me where I was but I just kept quiet. He didn’t seem to be asking anymore question. All he said that I should tell someone before disappearing and it’s dangerous for me to be outside alone at night. When we’re out of the lift, the doctor from the operation came out and said that he was alive but his situation wasn’t that good.

The doctor let us see him. I saw Harumi-san hold something so tight on his hand. When we’re inside, I saw Chikage-san, his eyes were bandaged. I knelt beside him while Harumi-san stood beside him the other way. Harumi-san cried out of relieve. I wasn’t the first one to come to the room. “Aki-kun, your father said that you went somewhere when I was in the operation room. Where did you go?” I cried looking at Chikage-san’s situation.

I gripped his hand. “*Hic hic* I..I was praying all the time. When you were in the operation room, all I could think was pray. Hoping that kami-sama would give you another chance.” “Aki-kun...” “...and, Harumi-san prayed for you too....right, Harumi-san?” At first, Harumi-san looked like he could hold his tears back but at any moment he went burst into tears. He gripped Chikage-san’s hand. “I was so scared..*Hic hic* I never wanted to lose you. Never...Just like what Aki-kun said, all I could think was pray for you.” “*Touch Harumi-san’s face* Thank you, both of you and everyone too.”

I didn’t stop there. I continued my words. “Chikage-oji-san, in this world, we’re not alone. You’re not alone. You don’t have to do all those things alone. You have Harumi-san, me, all of us. You don’t have to take all the burdens alone. We’re family, right? I bet, Harumi-san would very be sad if you'd take all those things alone...ne?” That moment, I could see Chikage-san’s face was flowing with tears while his mouth was opened a bit. Even though his eyes were bandanged, I could still imagine his sad face, his relieve face. In the end, we were all relieved that Chikage-san was okay. And from that day on, Harumi-san will stay by his side always.

After 2 years pass, I understand what relationship they were in back then. Like asking myself why Harumi-san desperately cried for Chikage-san while everyone was just worried? Harumi-san would always wait for Chikage-san. And also, that night...I finally able to understand their situation. Even though no one knows....yet, I think I’ll support them. I understand what it means by happiness, someone important to you. To me, whats important is that everyone is happy. And I know that Chikage-san would want that too.

After that horrible memories or more like incident, Chikage-san was forced to retired from his job. Of course he woouldn’t accepted that easily. Harumi-san suggested that it’s time that he should retired and just relax. Even though he’s not that old but I bet, Harumi-san just don’t want to repeat the same mistake to what had already happenned to Chikage-san again. I support Harumi-san. Even I don’t want Chikage-san to make the same incident again. It was terrifying because he was in front of me at that time.

I didn’t know what to do. Blaming myself as if it was my fault. Though I still thought it was my fault. I tried to cherish him like how Harumi-san cherish him too but I think I won’t surpass Harumi-san.

My father, me and also Harumi-san insisted that Chikage-san should be better off retired. He even said “Am I really that unworthy to protect this family *Sad*” But what surprised me the most was that we three shouted at him at the same time. “It’s for the best of you!!” He laughed after that but Harumi-san said that its not a laughing matter. He knew that the three of us were serious. After that, we all calmed down.

“If you want me to retired, I have one condition.” We all looked at him, what will he be thinking about this time. “I want...someone to take my place. Someone whose strong, worthy and trustable.” My father said that he’d hire someone with all those characteristic, but Chikage-san shook his head. My father looked confused. “No, I don’t want anyone else. I've already chosen him.”

I was so curious who this guy could be since he rejected father’s proposal. “Then, who will it be?” My heart went beating so fast! “It’s...Aki-kun. *Smiles*” Everyone, I mean, father and Harumi-san looked at me, then looked at Chikage-san back. “You want my child to take your place?! But he’s not strong enough!” Dad was obviously shocked to Chikage-san’s decision.

“I may retired from this job but I didn’t say that I’d retired from training. So, I’ll trained him as soon as possible.” Father was speechless and so were harumi-san. But since its for Chikage-san’s sake, they and I approved. And the next day, it was my first training. I didn’t even know ‘as soon as possible’ was this soon! And So, I learn so many defending skill. He hardly tought me any fighting technique. He did but, only basics one.

For the past few months, when there were fightings, my dad’s secretaries would take Chikage-san’s place. I was never been called up to fight them. I can only come when there were people taken as hostage because I can only defend them. And also, they didn’t want me to end up like Chikage-san. Sometimes, all the secretaries were badly injured but sometimes weren’t. That’s all due to the situation they were in. It depends what fight situation, like fighting with knives, fists or sometimes gun, but that’s hardly ever happen.

1 year past, and I went to middle school. For the past few months, feelings were mixed up. And thats where I got myself a lover. I loved him very much with all my heart. Soon, I forgot what situation I was in. I’d forgot that I was from a yakuza family and for a second there, I felt like I was from a different family, like a normal one. I was happy how it was going but that happiness didn’t stay very long when I bumped into some other yakuza’s family.

The only thing I remembered back then was yuya’s face was terrified when the yakuza’s guys were holding knife. He was shivering, knees shaking. And thats where all of it was just a fake. I could never come from a normal family. I could never have happiness. All I could feel was just hurting people. Even though I said that I was good at defending, but at that moment, I didn’t know how to control my panic situation.

I didn’t know what I should be afraid of the most, fighting with a yakuza’s guys with knife without any experience, or loosing the one you loved the most that filled with happiness. It didn’t take very long. The yakuza’s guys hold me up and kept on kicking me on the stomach. They hold me down tightly, pulled my hair and when I looked up, I was afraid, really afraid. I didn’t know what was wrong with me but my tears started to flow to my cheek.

I saw my lover, yuya was beaten up very badly. He was kicked hard down to the ground. All I could see that yuya was covered with blood all over and bruises too. I got mad and out of control. I almost killed all of the guys and when I was conscious, I was lying on the bed of my room. My body hurt. I was covered with bandaged. I didn’t remember anything till a moment strikes me. I stood up, walking gobbled as if I was drunk. I went out of my room, to the hall and thats when I saw Chikage-san, Harumi-san and also father.

At first, they were shocked that I moved all of the sudden with all the bandaged. So, they hold me and told me to calm down first. After that, they all looked very sad at me. I didn’t understand why they put up such a face. Then, they looked at each other. “Aki-kun, I think...its better for you to transfer school...again.” I was shocked that I got mad. “Why?! Urrghh *Headache*” They hold onto me but I slapped them. “You know right? Rumors can spread quite fast these days and they didn’t want you to go to that school anymore...”

I knew it. Why is it? All I want was just a fucking normal life!! I never wanted to be born into this yakuza family!! It’d driving me nuts!! Its making me going mad!!

But then, I knew, even Chikage-san, Harumi-san too, didn’t want to get involved in this Yakuza matter. To be living in a normal life, is what I think a very impossible for me.

Mite, ikuzo! chap. 14

It was a tragedy night. It was a very calmed night but yet there was a badly injured person in my family and got sent to the hospital. It was...Chikage-san. Harumi-san was contacted and went to the hospital immediately after the call. I was at the hospital with my father and the others. We were all worried. He was in the operation room. “Chikage-san! Chikage-san!” Harumi-san went mad! My father grip him and told him to calm down.

“How can I calm down?! Chikage-san is in there! *Cried* Chikage-san..” “*Hugged* Yes, we know. We are all very worried too, but we can’t do anything. All we have to do is wait till he doctor comes out, okay? If you get all noisy, they might want us to go home. I’m sure you don’t want that, right?” “*cried*” “Come on now, go sit over there. Just calm down first, okay?”

Even I don’t know what to do but, I can’t just sit down and do nothing. Then, I remembered.I first saw him at the temple. Chikage-san had always been cleaning the ground that’s piled with dead leaves. I had always been hiding, scared that I’ll be killed. Harumi-san always told me that Chikage-san was a nice person.

After sometimes, Chikage-san would always pray after the cleaning. Then, one time he pray with his voice out. He usually prayed quietly. “Kami-sama, I have committed a lot of sins from back then, now or maybe later. Please give strength to endure the pain. Please, give peace and harmony to my family. Kami-sama, please.”

I saw how desperate Chikage-san was when he prayed. My family have never been in any chaos so I thought that Chikage-san was weird since our family have already been in peace and harmony...but, ever since then, I could only see Chikage-san’s was injured a lot of time due to fightings. But it seems that, even if Chikage-san was injured, it looked like a lot of people know why..And after a long while, I understand. He was just trying to protect the family.

After Chikage-san leaves the temple. I sneak out from my hiding and start to pray too. “Kami-sama, I’m sorry that I thought Chikage-oji-san was a bad person and even though Harumi-san had always told me that he was kind and I never took his advise. He is the most kindest person in my family, I think? and anyone I’ve ever known. Please forgive his sins. He just do what’s best for all of us and I cherish him the most. Please, kami-sama! *Clench his eyes*”  It may be the most embarrassing to say all those things because when I turn around, I found out that Chikage-san was standing right behind me!!

I blushed really hard. “Eh...eto..Ano..Ehh...waaaa...*BLUSHED*” “*Chuckle* You don’t have to be embarrassed like that. I’m happy that you prayed for me. *Smiles*” Even if he said that I shouldn’t be embarrassed, I just can’t stop blushing! After that, we left the temple together and stop by at a cake shop. The cake shop was run by Harumi-san’s parents. I’ve never been there before. “Come on, lets buy something for harumi-san and the others too.” I never thought that Chikage-san was so considerate to the others.

“Chikage-oji-san..I’m..sorry.*sad*” I should never thought of him as a bad guy since he’s this kind! “*Smiles* Don’t worry. People just mistaken me for what I do.” “That’s why they’re wrong! You were doing for someone else’s sake! You’ve never been selfish wanting money, fame or anything else. All you want was just to protect the family and I..*Hic hic* I was thinking like those people too..” “*Stroke his hair* It’s okay. If you start crying, people might mistaken me even more” “Ah..I’m sorry” “Come on now.” “Umh!”

After we bought a lot of cake, around 6-8 people approached us. I was scared while Chikage-san covered me from behind. “What do you want?” Chikage-san sounded like a different person. I don’t even know what to do. “What do we want? Heh *Smirk* We want pay back! Ya hear me!?” “I’m not deaf yet, so keep your voice down a bit.” “What the hell?! You messin’ around with us?! *eyes wide open*” “*Bend down* Aki-kun, when I said go, run as fast as you can. Don’t look back, okay? Go home immediately!” “But...”

“Aww...your last chit chat, old man?! What? Don’t tell me you’re going to back down?” “Just don’t cry after what you’ll get.” “Why you...! *Run forwards* Yaaaaa.!!!!”  “Now go!” “Eh? But...” “I said go!” I do what he said, but it feels wrong leaving him alone with those guys. I want to turn back and help him. But I don’t know what to do. Ah! I should contact father! Ah, but only Chikage-san has the cell phone..maybe I should turn back??

“Kids like you should just go to school and learn something. You shouldn’t be fighting on the streets. Don’t your parents ever teach you that?” “man, this old man just keeps on pissing me off every single time he opened his mouth!!” “Why don’t you shut his mouth already, heiya! Heh..” “Yeah, just shut that old man up!! It’s annoying!” “Now lets play *Knife*” “Knife? Cowards... *Serious*” “Tch!! The hell!! Die, you old man!! *Move forward*”

I was hiding behind a wall more like beside some trash. It’s not too far from the fight, but it’s not too near either but I can see it clearly. I was amazed how Chikage-san can dodge that man while holding a knife but at the same time, I felt really worried. 6 guys have been down for a while. There’s only 2 more. The man that hold the knife was still up. He just pushed his men to fight chikage-san and chikage-san manage to pull them down.

Chikage-san hasn’t been injured, though I don’t want him to. The guy with a knife made his move and Chikage-san dodge it, the second guy from behind hold his 2 arms behind. “Heh. Never knew you’d think that simple, huh? Stupid old man! Well, your life ends now! Die!!” No..no!!! Chikage-san can’t die!! He can’t!! I was out of control. So I took some heavy things like an empty wooden box and throw it to the guy that holds the knife.

“Yaaaahhh!!! *throw*” I aimed for his head. While the guy that holds Chikage-san looked puzzled, Chikage-san took the chance and kick him hard on the stomach. He can barely stood up. “Aki-kun! I thought I told you to go home! What were you thinking?! It’s dangerous, you know that?!” “But..I just don’t want to leave you alone with those guys. You were in a dangerous situation too..So, I thought that I might help you...” “*Sigh* Well, at least you’re okay.”

“i..iteee... hey kid..You know that’s my head?! It hurts like hell man! I’ll give you a pay back and you can feel how I feel! *Run forwards*” the guy can still stood up and ran towards me..I’m going to die?! I’m going to die!! *Clench his eyes* *Slash* When I opened my eyes slowly and saw chikage-san was lying on the ground...and there was blood all over him. “Tch! *Runs away*” I was on a critical shocked! I didn’t know what to do. Is chikage-san’s going to die?!

Then, there’s a ring tone coming from his pocket. I saw it was father’s number and father’s name. I answered in panic. “Aki-kun? Where’s Chikage?” “*Hic hic* Father...” “Aki-kun?! What’s wrong?! Aki-kun?! Where’s Chikage?! Give him the phone!” “Father...Chikage-san..he’s...he’s dying...*Hic hic* there’s a lot of blood all over him..father..” “What?! Aki-kun, where are you right now?”

It wasn’t long enough until they came. They even bring an ambulance too. I was still crying don’t know what to do. I-it’s all my fault! It’s my fault that Chikage-san was dying! Right now, there’s only father, harumi-san and 5 other people in the hospital waiting for Chikage-san’s result. He was put in the operation room. I feel so guilty. I don’t want to sit and do nothing. I just have to do something, because it’s my fault! I start to walk away from the hospital. “Aki-kun, where are you going?”

I don’t want to answer it but.. “I’ll come back!” “Aki-kun...!” father shouted at me, asking where I go. But I just can’t answer that. Because that place is where I prayed for Chikage-san’s. *Pants pants* It’s not that far and not that near either. I kept on running and when I arrived at the temple, I knelt down and began to pray. “Kami-sama, I beg you. Please, save Chikage-oji-san! It’s my fault! So don’t take away his life just yet! Please kami-sama, please! *Tears* Don’t take him away.”

That night, all I do was kept on praying. Hoping that Kami-sama would save Chikage-san’s life.

Mite, Ikuzo! Chap. 13

“Chikage-san! Chikage-san! *Happy, running*” “Aki-kun? you’re up early..*Smiles*” Chikage-san was the main top person in my family since generation. I admired his bravery. Every night, there’s always been a fight and when Chikage-san got back home, he’d always looked injured and some blood were stained on his clothes. The first time I met him, it's when I was around 12 years old, I was terrified of him. Every one respected him, he’s like the dearest person in the family.

After sometimes, my cousin, Harumi-san, told me that he done it every night. Harumi-san also said that he killed people. I was just a kid so I got even more terrified when I heard it. Harumi-san continue his words, “Even if he killed people, he never intend to do it in the first place. *Bitter smile*” “Then why do chikage-oji-san do it?! It’s not nice to kill people! *Angry*” Harumi-san kept on smiling as if it was a good thing. “Aki-kun, let me ask you something. What will you do if you heard there were people who wanted to kill your family, siblings, cousin or your dearest one?”

“Of course I’ll kill them first before they get their dirty hand lays on my family! *serious*” “Now, do you understand why Chikage-san do the same thing, Aki-kun?” “Ah..*stunned*” The word 'kill' just came out of my mouth. I didn't even meant to say it. “Chikage-san loves this family very much as much as you love yours.” I finally understand how suffered chikage-san has been all this time. There always been a rumor saying that my family has a murderer. Even at my school, I heard there’s mothers’ taking their children away from me.

“Don’t play with that kid over there, okay?” “But mom, Tomoharu-kun is nice. Why can’t I play with him?” ‘He’s dangerous! I don’t want my kid to play with dangerous people!”

I often hear those words. After that, I got transfered to a lot of school. My family even tried hard to keep it a secret but it just leak so quickly! I never wanted to trouble my family by transfering me to somewhere else just because the secret leaked out. I don’t care what other people say, because I know the truth! They don’t know how much pain Chikage-san tried to protect my family! If only...if only they knew how it’d feel when their family’s in danger!

“Urgh...*Can’t walk properly” “Chikage-oji-san! Are you alright?! *Grip*” I saw cikage-san was badly injured. I wasn’t scared of him anymore because I know, he just wanted to protect this family. “Aki-kun, you’re not scare....having an uncle like me? *Pants pants*” “Of course not! I’m happy that I have an uncle like you!” “Heh, *Smiles*” “Come on, walk slowly, I’ll bring you to the living room.” At that time, when I saw Chikage-san smile, I kinda understand that he doesn’t want to be hated by the family or anyone else.

“Ah, Chikage-san. You look badly injured! You wait here, I’ll go get the first aid.” That doctor has always been like a family too. He’s always worried about Chikage-san health. “You’re finish early. What happened *Concern face*” “Ah, Harumi. Their were only several of them. It’s not as many as I expected to it be too.” “Even if its not as many as you were expected it to be, you should take care your body a little. What happen if you’ll be dead lying around the ground!”

They’ve always been arguing like this. Harumi-san is the only one who worried about Chikage-san the most. They’re 5 years different. “If I die, then I must be really finding someone to substitude me in the future, fast. *Bitter smile*” “*Angry, slap* Don’t you dare start talking about dying in front of me!” “Aki-kun, would you go help the doctor? It looks like he’s taking a long time.” “Ah, umh! *Walk away*” Even after I leave the room, I could still hear them arguing. I was just a kid, so I don’t understand that much.

In the middle of the night, I was going to the toilet. On my way there, I passed by Chikage-san’s room. I heard noises coming from that room. Since it’s already midnight, I thought that I might be hearing things, so I ignored it. But, I heard it again. I peek through the door and I was so shocked! I saw Harumi-san and Chikage-san were kissing each other. I turn around as my heart skip a beat. I kept on thinking ‘wasn’t it suppose to be a girl and a boy? Can two guy kiss?!’ I heard noises again...

“Ah..No wait..Someone may hear us. Ah..”

“*licked, licked* Don’t worry everyone’s already asleep. Just try lowering your voice down a bit. *Suck nipple*”

 “Ah..Ummhh..”

 My heart beats even faster! I wanted to go away as soon as possible but somehow, my body felt hot. Even though I shouldn’t continue peeking, I just did.

“*Suck* You’re already this wet, huh? Such a lewd body you have..as usual..*Kiss, stroke*”

“Mphh...Uuhh..”

I can’t stop looking at those two. My body become hotter and hotter and got erect from watching them. *Gulp* A-are they having s-sex?? Can guys do that? But, where do they put their thing in...*Gulp*

“Ahh..No more...Haahh...haahhh...Hurry..put it in...*Spread his leg open*”

Eh?! You’re kidding! In the butt? Won’t that hurt?!

“Can’t you wait abit more..let me loosen it up for you. *Lick his asshole*”

“Ahhh...n-no more..*Put his finger into his mouth* I-I’ll come if you keep on doing that...I’ll be fine..just out it in already...”

“*Sweat* Haahh...really, you’re really good at seducing me, you know that? okay, here I go. *Thrust*”

“Aaahhh..Haahhh..haaahhh..yaa...”

“Does it hurt? *Pants pants* *Hold harumi in his arm*”

“N-no, haaahh...I’m alright..just start moving..”

“*Hold harumi's hip, thrust thrust* Harumi...*Hugged*”

“Ahh..! Haahh...aahhh..yaahh...uuhnnn.. *kiss* Ummhh...umm..”

“*Thrust thrust thrust* Lower your voice a little. Does it really feel that good that you keep on moaning?”

“...Ahhhnn..haaahh..yeah...”

 Feel..good? *put his hand in this pants, stroke stroke* Ahh..

“More..Move faster...harder..ahh..haaahhh..”

“Heh. *Thrust thrust*”

“Ahhh..haahh..” 

Ahh..ahhh... It’s like..I’m feeling it. Ahh..

“Chikage..haahh..I’m coming...coming..”

“Then, come Harumi..”

“Ahhh..ahh..commi— *Hugged*”

 *Pant pant* I cum. *Sticky*

“Haahh..haahh..*Kiss* Umh..umh..Chikage..”

“Harumi..Harumi...*Kiss*”

After that night, Chikage-san got busier and busier while Harumi-san just can’t stop worrying. Awaiting Chigake-san to come home is what Harumi-san been doing all the time.

Mite, ikuzo! chap. 12

Should I really tell Shuu about what happen? He seems really bothered by that incident..Well...Of course he’d be bothered, because I’m stuck in a situation with Tomoharu...! Tch...! I didn’t plan it end up like this.

“Well, since you already predict it how it’ll definitely gonna happen, then I’ll try my best to avoid it.”

Did he really avoid it? Or was it just coincidental? I still can’t get through this! “Oi! You’re not going home with him again today?” Speaking of the devil... “He said he’s going with a friend of his...Why’d you ask? *Angry look*” “Whoa...Easy there. When you said a friend of his, does that mean you don’t know this ‘friend’?” Man, I really want to shut him up. I don’t even feel like talking to this guy. “Guess not. *Looked away*” “Heh. Did you got ditch or something?”

I really should be ignoring him from the beginning. “*Silence*....” “Ohh...Did I got it right?” Ignore it! “Too bad..Maybe I’ll try asking him to go home with me sometime.” “*Look at tomoharu* Well, why don’t you try then?” “You don’t care? Oh well, I might even get him to listen to me every single word and stop meeting you for once.” “*Shocked*” This guy...! He’s just the type of guy that really can’t be ignore by people!

“*Looked at the window*” “Aren’t you going home? How about we go home together?” Is this guy really sane?! Sometimes he get pissed off but then he got really nice! It’s like nothing ever happen between us! “Just what are you thinking?! Wanna go home with me?!” “Well, that’s what I ask. Did you hear it right?” Is he...making fun of me or something?! *Eye twitching*

“Come on, we might even meet up with this ‘friend’ of his. Don’t you want to?” Is he only thinking on meeting Shuu’s friend? “You know, what do you think if Shuu caught us together?” “Hmmm? Caught us together? What do you mean by that? Hmmm? *Grin*” “*Surprise*” “Besides, we didn’t do anything, did we?” “Of course not! Never in my life!” “Then, it’s okay, right?” “You know...Sometimes, that brain of yours, doesn't seem to work properly. I don’t even know how the heck you got into this class?!”

“Oi..What are we talking about my brain for? I’m asking about going home together here..” All he thinks is simple. He never seem to care about anything that’ll happen to Shuu’s pure innocent feelings! “What will you do if he caught us together going home? He even doesn’t seem to be himself after we got into class. Do you realize that?” Guess this guy is pretty slow.. “Hmmm...I thought I put up a good rumor about my cramped leg.” “*Eye twitching* Do you really think he’s that stupid!? I told you not to underestimate him! You just don’t understand him!”

“That’s why, let’s go home together and when he really do meet with us. I’ll explain to him thoroughly...” H-he’ll gonna tell him? About what really happen? “...though if you don’t mind, of course..*smile*” *surprise* D-did he plan all this from the beginning?! “Do you think it’ll be that simple? Once he knows the truth he’ll—” “...find it hard to believe?” “*Surprise* Uuhh—” He...understands?? 

“But then, that doesn’t mean he’d give up that easily , right?” Ah...he took my words back then. Is he serious?! “Are sure about this?” “A man doesn’t take his words back, you know?” Yeah, yeah..A man’s words, huh? “So, can we go now? It’ll be night if you keep on thinking here, come on.” Hmph...Really this guy.. “You better know what you’re going to do!” “Don’t worry *Smiles* I’ll be fine. Just watch me.” This guy sounds so real but he might be feeling nervous and scared right now and I bet he is!

“You know, you don’t have to make it sound like its your last moment,  you know?” “What? Doesn’t that make me look like I’m a bit considerate of someone?” Considerate? Being considerate? What’s there to be considerate about? “Considerate?” “*Pull Yuka’s hand* Now, now. Let’s go!” “O-oi!”

“*Slam, closing shoe locker* Wanna stop by at a cake shop?” cake shop? I thought we’re suppose to go home. “Can’t you buy it tomorrow?” “Aww, come on. I’m craving for one!” He has sweet tooth, huh? Just like Shuu... Maybe I should buy one for him too? “Come on, come on! It’ll be night if we keep standing here!” Man, somehow, I feel like baby sitting a big baby... “Alright, alright. Keep your whining!”

We used to stop by at a cake shop, and Shuu always keep on me dragging and in the end, we almost go there everyday. We even got used to people there. It’ like we’re neighbors but they're from a different district.. Shuu always took his time talking with the chef who makes the cake. We stop going to that cake shop because he got to prepare for his test back then. And even after that test, we somehow stopped stopping by. Shuu never even ask or drag me into that cake shop.I wonder if there’s something happened?

“Hmmm? Yeah, guess so. My cousin runs this shop.” Eh? “Ehhhh??” What the?! He’s cousin?! “B-but I thought you’re family were...” “Well, not all actually. And my cousin said that he wanted to run a cake shop and here it is. Guess he has more easy life *Pain smile*” So, even yakuza family can choose their life choice, huh? I wonder why he picked to be in yakuza family... “Then, why did you choose your choice to be in your family, the yakuza family?” “Well, that is....”

Mite, ikuzo! chap. 11

*Pants pants, running* It can’t be! It can’t be!! *Clenching his eyes shut* Yuka would understand!! I know he would! Because he’s...! *Bam* “I...itai...” Did I hit the wall while running? “*Opened his eyes* Ah..” I hit on someone.. “I’m sorry, I didn’t see you...*Stands up* Of course I didn’t see him! I closed my eyes while running! “It’s okay, I’m fine. Good thing you didn’t hit a wall...” “.....” Ah, did he just said wall? Did he just said something inside my mind??

“*Look at his watch* Ah, its already late. Sorry about that. *Wave his hand up*” What was that all about? We bumped into each other and he goes away like that. Well at least I did apologize to him properly...or so I think..But right now, I’m in more serious matter. This time, I will go to class even if something did happen. I won’t run away. Never again....(?)  *Slide, door opened* “You’re late, takumi-kun! You’re suppose to be in class in the past 10 minutes!”

“Ah, sorry sensei. I forgot that you’re teaching after lunch *smiles*” *Class laughing* “*Blushed* A-anyway, go sit to your place!” Yeah, I can’t show it to other people about my personality feelings. I should only show it to myself. Only to myself. *sits* I should just give up...? I did try my best....Eh? try...my best? Is it because I haven’t try my best that he doesn’t notice me yet? But what does it have to do with Yuka? What did Yuka did? What drives Tomoharu onto Yuka? What does Yuka has that I don’t?

*Slides, door opened* “Sorry sensei, we’re kinda late.” “Kinda late!? It’s almost 15 minutes till my lessons are over. Both of you are going to work 3 times than the class you hear me! No excuses!” “But we were...” “No buts! Now go to your sits!” They were really late. What were they doing? Ah! Did they...done it...?? At school?! It can’t be! Right? They won’t do it at such place...No! I shouldn’t be thinking any negative thoughts about them. I should ask them if i want to know what really happens.

Because only they know the truth. If I start thinking about something thats not true, I’ll just be nothing more than a rumor maker. But I...don’t know if I have the guts to ask them about it. I’ll just be a busybody and I’ll definitely be in their way for sure. But I need to make sure if they really are going out or not. *Ding dong* “Okay, class dismiss and both of you, Tomoharu-kun adn Haruka-kun, make sure you do your work and due it tomorrow at lunch time!”

“Tomorrow?! At lunch time? But it’s 3 times more harder than the class! It’s not fair.” ”Well, that’ll make sure that you won’t miss my next class. If you’re not going to do it tomoharu, I’ll deduct your marks and you will stay for another year!” *Slides, door shut* “Tch! Just because he’s a teacher that doesn’t mean he can control me!” “Ne, Tomoharu-kun, just why were you late for class? And with Haruka-kun too? What happen?” Ah, it started. Just what were they doing?

“My legs were cramped after sitting for so long. So, haruka was just helping me standing up but it was hard for him too.” “Is that why you guys were so late?” “Yup. Sorry if that  makes you worried.” “If you’re okay, then everything is alright.*Smiles*” Tha-That’s a lie! As if he was sitting for so long! I saw him lying on Yuka!

“Shuu...Do you want to go home together today?” He’s talking as if nothing happen. As if he doens’t want me to know anything about them. “It’s alright. I’m...going back with a friend. He request me if I can go with him today.” A lie. Such lies. “A friend? Who is it?” Things will never be how it used to be...since Yuka already has someone special. “Its...no one you know.” “*Surprise* Eh? Someone I don’t know? Not in our class?”

“Y-Yeah, he’s from another class.” I don’t even know whom I'm talking about. “From what class?” Ah.... “He-he’s from...” *Ding dong, ends school* “Ah, It’s already end of school. I better wait for him. B-bye.” “*Reach Shuu’s hand* Shuu..I—” “Please, he’ll be waiting if I don’t be there.” “*Angry look* Shuu, wait for me tonight at the usual place. Where we used to be when we were in middle school. I’ll be waiting. *Let go Shuu’s hand*” “What if I don’t come...?” “I’ll wait till you come.”

There’s no such thing! *Slides, door opened* “Ah, Shuu, don’t forget to introduce this new friend of yours next time okay? *Smiles*” *Surprise* “Hmph! *Leave*”  How can he still be smiling! Of course he’ll be smiling! He got a special ones by his side!! I don’t even feel like coming! *Bam* “I..itai..Ah, I’m sorr—” Ah, the same person! “Ah, what a coincidence. We bumped into each other again. Hahaha, must be fate.” “Fate?” “Ah, anyway, we haven’t introduce each other the last time.” “Ah  yeah...” “My name is Takatsuki Yuya from class 2-3”

Eh? Yuya? I’ve heard that name before, but where? When? “How about you?” “Ah, Ummm..My name is  Takumi Shuu from 2-1” “Ah, you’re from 2-1? You must be smart then?” “Eh? N-no, not at all. I’ve always studied the last minute. My friend always helped me out.” Always helped me out. Yeah, Yuka always helped me out if I’m troubled. He always been protective but why did he not protect me this time? “Want to go home together?” Eh? “*Happy* Yes, I would like too! *smiles*” 

Mite, ikuzo! chap. 10

“*Shocked* What are you planning on doing? Or do you intend to hurt him in the first place?”

“*smiles* Are you stupid? Just to make sure, I really do don’t like you. You’ll just hurt him in the end. Since I already know it’ll gonna end up that way, I’ll just make sure he’ll go to your flow for the mean time.”

“*Grab Yuka’s shirt* Are you going to expose my secret!? I thought by telling you, you’d be thinking what’s best for him!”

“Now, now. I’m not the one whose going to be expose it.”

“Then who?! You’re the only one I’ve told! *Pull*”

“You mean only me and you.”

“*Let go Yuka’s shirt* Y-you mean, I’ll be the one who’ll tell him my own secret to him?! To the one I don’t want the most!? Heh, *Chuckle* just how will that gonna happen?”

“I know how it’ll happen so you’ll just have to wait and see...You don’t want him to hurt too, right? So don’t think about him too much. It’ll just be a repeating mistake all over again and I’m sure you don’t want that to happen. *Chuckle*”

“You can be friends with him and that’s as far as I can accept. Since you already know that he’s not the type to give up so easily, please try to be conscious when you might think there are oppurtunities when you’re with him.”

“You..! What the hell are you up to! I’d shared something with you then why don’t you?!”

“It’s you who wanted to share, not me. And since this is my secret, I’m not gonna share it with you.”

“What? Is this secret of yours have anything to do between me and Takumi after that my secret expose?!”

“*Surprise* Ah...”

“Heh! Did I hit the nail right?”

“*Smiles* Please, don’t be full of yourself. This is one of your attitude that I hate the most!”

“Well, since you already predict it how it’ll definitely gonna happen, then I’ll try my best to avoid it. I’ll make sure to never follow your flow! I’ll just go back as I used to be.”

“Are you sure? This is your last year and so do we. Are you going to leave after graduate with that kinda memory? Being harsh to the one you like the most? It’ll definitely gonna tear you apart for sure, not like I care anyway. Both goes fine with me.”

“*jolt* W-who cares anyway? *Sweat*”

“Oohh— Coming from that mouth of yours, I wonder if its the truth, heh.”

“Tch!”

Somehow, they look so friendly just now. It’s like they’ve known each for a long time ago. When did it start?

 "*Touch Yuka's chin* Hmmm...I don't know, maybe I'm interested in you?" *Tomoharu hug Yuka*

I bet it has something to do when they were in the infirmary. Urggh, now I’m curious. Why did Tomoharu hug Yuka back then? Why did he said that he’s interested in Yuka? Did Tomoharu longing to do that, to say that to Yuka? Was all this time, I’m just getting in their way? Should I ask directly? Won’t that considered as busybody? Waahh!! I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ll just leave it as it be for the mean time. If they or yuka still won’t talk to me about the infirmary incident then, I have no choice but to ask him honestly!

*sad* but that means, Yuka got to have Tomoharu which is what I longing to. Ah! But if that makes Yuka happy, then I’ll be happy for him. Umh! “*Slides, door rooftop’s opened*...*Shocked*” Ah... *Tomoharu pushed yuka down* “Wha...What are you guys doing?” Oh no, this is bad. Even though I said I’ll be happy for him but I feel like crying right now. “*Tears flow*” “*Both Tomoharu &Yuka, Shocked*” “Ah...W-why am I crying in the middle of the day? Haha...stupid me..*wiping his tears*” “Shuu, I...*Trying to reach Shuu*” “E-exuse me! *ran away*”

What’s happening to me! I-I can’t stop, it won’t stop! *Hic hic, ran away* I really do don’t want to give him up...! 

          “You don’t have to push me down, you jerk! Look what you’ve done! You made Shuu cry!”

          “If you didn’t piss me off, I would’nt even be doing such things! He misunderstood our position while I was thinking on beating you up!”

          “Just take them as a joke! You took it too seriously!”

          “Well your joke sucks! Who would’ve joke about his best friend behind their back.”

          “*Snap* You...!! *Pull Tomoharu’s T-shirt*”

          “What? Can’t you take that as a joke too? *Annoyed face*”

          “*Push Tomoharu away* Whatever. I’m going to class...You don’t have to worry about him. I’ll tell the teacher he went home due to his feverish...again”

          “Home?”

          “What? You think he can take lightly after what he just saw? I bet it's his biggest shocked to him! I think he’ll even start avoinding you...”

          “*Shocked* What?!”

          “...and me.”

          “Ahh...”

          

Mite, ikuzo! chap. 9

*The next day.* I must confront him just like how we usually do. Umh! “Ah, good morning Yuka!” “*Turns around* Good morning, Shuu. *Smiles*” Ah, he’s in a good mood...Did something happen to him? This is so unusual. I’m sure that he’d be more worried after what happen yesterday. Isn’t he suppose to be asking me if I’m okay? Did he already forgot about it? “Ne, yuka.” “Hmmm?” “*Shocked!!*” He usually said ‘what is it?’ but he just mumbling?!

“*Forcing to smile, arkward* D-did something happen to you yesterday? You kinda seem in a very good mood today. Mind sharing?” “Ah, Shuu. Nah, nothing happen. *Smile*” There is definitely something!! “*Whisper whisper* Tomoharu-kun~ good morning.” Ah, Tomoharu...He’s here.

 “That’s why, I’ll never give up to the one I like!”

"*Murmur* Yu...ya..." 

It still a mystery to me. Its like he’s hiding something and I know there must be a reason why he’s pretending to be friendly. When he’s with me, all he do is saying harsh words. He never said anything nice. Just what did I do that made him hate me so much? “Shuu, you don’t want to greet him ‘good morning’?” “*Blus——h~!* What’s the sudden? And I thought you don’t want me to get close to ‘him’. What’s wrong with you today?” There is definitely wrong with Yuka today!

“Well, you can do it once in a while, right? If you’re with the others then its okay. Just don’t get too lonely with him.” Ah, is Yuka...being considerate? “Umm..umh! Okay, I’ll try then..*Gulp*” “Walk toward tomoharu* A-ano...t-tomoharu-kun, g-good morning.*Shy*” “*Turns around, looked*” “*Gulp*” “*Smiles, sparkle* Good morning, Takumi.” Eh? He smiles? “Door opened* Okay class, I’ll be calling your names for the attendance. So please be sited”

Tomoharu...smiled for the first time. He usually be calling me something else with his annoyed face. Just what happen to everyone today!!! First, its yuka. He’s been smiling ever since morning. Now, it’s tomoharu. I don’t know which one is more scary! Tomoharu or Yuka? *Ding dong, lunch* “Okay class, I want every one of you to due your homework next week. Class dismiss.” Okay, I should really be asking them what happen but I’m not sure if I can ask Tomoharu though.

“Y-yuka...” “Nani? *Smiles*” Even though this is how he usually replies to me but with that smile on his face, he’s still not himself! “I want you to answer me honestly, can you?” “*Question mark head* Sure, but what is it?” I should know if he’s lying or not because we’ve been best friend from middle school. “Uhh...Are you...I mean...you..” “hmmm?” “Uu—*Tense atmosphere*” With everyone in the class, I can’t even ask him this one question. I’m such a coward.

“Let’s just go to the rooftop first. *Walk, step step*” I’m really pathetic.*Depressed* What should I ask him first? Even though I said I only want to ask him one question but there’s a lot I want to ask! Like why is he in a good mood today. I know I should be happy that he is, but it creeps me out when he’s in a good mood without me knowing it why. I kinda feel guitly not knowing anything from a close friend. I’m sorry Yuka, I’m such a loser.

And there’s that too. The incident from yesterday. I didn’t forget it ever since last night. I just pretend that nothng happen but, that pretend ends now. I must know anything, everything! I don’t want Yuka to hide it from me. I thought we’re best friend! “Slides, door opened* Ah...*Surprise*” “What’s wrong Shuu? You’re stopping in the middle of the way. Come on no— *Surprise...*”

Tomoharu...is here? What is he doing here? He never been here ever since the last time. This is suppose to be our place; Yuka and I lunch time. “Ah, Haruka, Takumi. You guys are eating here? That’s a coincidence. *Smiles*” “Ah, yeah. Shuu and I usually eat here everyday. What brings you here? *making his way to Tomoharu*” Wait a second! Why is Yuka’s being friendly with Tomoharu?! I thought Yuka dont’t like him? What gives?! “I was just having some fresh air and take a short nap.” “Well, sorry to interrupt you then.”

They’re talking as if nothing had happenned between all of us! I don’t even feel like blending in. Should I go somewhere else? Look at them, being all friendly in front of me. I thought Yuka know that I like Tomoharu, but instead he’s the one whose getting close to Tomoharu. *Sad* “*Creak*” “Ah, Shuu...where are you going?” “I’m...just going  the toilet for a minute. *Bitter smile*” “Ah, Shuu...wait..!*Try to reach Shuu.*” “*Slam, door shut*” “What are you doing anyway? You’re not suppose to be follow my flow. You should just act how you’re suppose to be.” “*Evil smile* Yes, just what exactly am I doing?”